Behind the blog

I have started Under the Willow Tree as an outlet for myself to express all the things I feel and cant necessarily talk about all the time with other people. It is really my way of keeping the memory of my baby girl alive, and of being able to talk to her at times, so to speak.

I have struggled with the fact that myself and my husband might be the only people in the whole world who think about her, and I am the only person who ever got the chance to have any real connection with her. And when I am no longer here it will be as though she never existed. To me it's like the concept of the tree that falls in the forest and no ones around to hear it, did it make a sound. If no one is thinking of my baby, did she exist? Of course she did but now there is proof forever.

When we found out our angel was a little girl I wanted to name her Willow. For two reasons, one it was the last name we had discussed while we were still pregnant with her. Two because Willow makes me think of a beautiful landscape with lovely warm sun and sparling flowing water, with a magical hideaway place under a Willow tree, its weeping leaves blowing peacefully in the breeze. I have always loved the idea of a Willow tree, to sit under one like a tree house and watch the branches dance in the wind, a beautiful place to be free to rest and dream. Hence the name of this blog.

I imagine a magical place where hearts listen and Angels sing, Under the Willow Tree. Where Dandelion wishes are magic, And all our Angels Dance free. My little baby girl is in a happy place in my mind and in my heart. I guess I am lucky in a way, I get my Willow always watching over me, Ill be Under my Willow Tree for ever.

Although I am getting better, my want and need to protect my children has not been overridden with Willow, it's still not sitting right to have my angel watching over ME. I am yet to find that place...